Tag: universe

Permission to be everything, including happy

Lately when I’ve been out and about in the world and run into people that I know they ask me how I am and when I say, “Great! I’m really good, thank you. How are you?” sometimes I sense that my reply takes them off guard. I have noticed that there’s sometimes a lingering pause …

The family that wasn’t meant to be

At certain points in my life, I wanted to have children with GR more than I wanted anything in the world. I pined for a family. Everywhere I went I only saw pregnant women. It was like I was starring in my own horror movie. Zombie pregnant women were always coming at me. It was …

Big life questions, big life answers

I have struggled with the big questions of life since I was 10 years old. I can pinpoint the exact two days that forced me into this deeper realm of questioning. It was not by choice. The first happened on April 3, 1987 when I woke up to complete chaos in our house. I learned …

Acceptance, in all its guts and glory

“The universe, I’d learned, was never, ever kidding. It would take whatever it wanted and it would never give it back.” – Cheryl Strayed,┬áBrave Enough The first time I read that passage last year, a few months after GR died, I thought it was harsh. I was still very much floating in a sea of …

Shaman Rob changed everything

Almost two months to the day after GR died I flew to Los Angeles by myself. My dear friend Kelli lives in Santa Monica with her husband Greg and their daughter Ruby. She had called me a few days after GR died to tell me that they were all going to New Zealand for six …